Throw away my wedding video, that is.
I actually divorced his manipulative arse almost 3 yrs ago (though been separated from him 5 yrs now). Originally, I kep the video of our wedding for our daughter. There are a few things that I kept for her. A few photos, the vid, my old wedding ring and my gown.
She's been watching the vid a lot lately. The more she watches it, the more disgusted I become. Disgusted with myself for even being naive enough to marry him, let alone stay even when things were going to shit. Disgusted with him for showing his true colors and being the manipulative douchebag that he was. Nothing but hate towards him.
I remind myself that I was young and stupid and was in dire need of a proctologist to help pry my head from my backside.
I remind myself that I chose to keep this video for my daughter.
But damn it all if I won't get fed up one of these nights and toss it in the dumpster after she goes to bed.
Ok, feel better now.




- randi1978
on Dec. 15, 2011 at 9:49 PM