We've been faking a happy relationship for years now and I can't take if anymore. The whole time I've been trying to look past our differences and make the best of what we can agree on...but it's just not enough. I keep trying to convince myself that we need to keep trying and stay together even if we aren't in love for the sake our 2 kids. It's sooo hard though. I want my kids to have both their parents at all times, but I'm not happy with their father and it's making me depressed. The dislike for eachother goes both ways. We know we're not meant to be and have known this for a very long time now. We're just afraid of what it will be like as a broken family. Financially we'll be fine. We both have jobs and make plenty to support ourself and the kids. We plan to share custody 50/50. I wanted us to work out most importantly for our kids but also because I feel that I'm going to be embarrased to be a single mom. I never imagined myself to not live happily ever after with the father of my children. I feel like it's going to feel the same as someone I love dying. I may not be in love with him, but I do love him and always will. So even if getting a divorce is what's best for everyone, it's going to be incredibly hard. Everyone (friends & family) think we're so happy and everything is good, so they're going to be so surprised. That's going to be difficult. His family loves me dearly and I know this is going to be very hard for them to accept. That breaks my heart. I don't want to hurt them. :( Is there anyone in my shoes or has been there done that?? I have no one to talk to since I don't share our problems with my family or anyone I/we know!