i'd either be dead or on drugs.
many people say that its probably not true, that i'd still accomplish all that i have (graduated high school, college, got a career, etc) but i know its true
how do i know?
b/c i still want to kill myself, but he's the only thing stopping me.. i'm trying to find things to enjoy (to find myself/my life worth living), but honestly- i have no idea what i'd enjoy. (what do you enjoy?)
i still want to do drugs. i havent touched drugs in almost 7 years.. and weed- in over a year (it was more social; once every few months... although i think i've found a new addiction of smoking this hookah/shi sha thing and i'm not quite sure on how to stop.. its like i GOTTA smoke every night. at work, i'm thinking that i cant wait to go home and get ds into bed so i can smoke, etc)