I mean wtf not. Where does being responsible really get you? Someone answer me that. Here I am busting my ass, not on shit, going to school, working my ass off at work and its gotten me and my family NOWHERE! I am beyond my limit, finishing school will only get me a $2 raise that will amount to nothing when I have to start paying off student loans. My marriage is falling apart because we both are working so hard (well me). What I bring home doesn't even cover daycare for me to go to school (after medical). My 2nd grader is fixing to be held back because I CAN'T BE HOME TO HELP HIM AND NOONE ELSE WILL. My kids cry everytime I leave and when im there im to damn exsahusted to enjoy them. Im left with guilt, broke, and being a shitty mom just to be responsible. Fuck this. If I quit everything and live off the government I can be home to take care of the most important things in my life and be less on edge. Wtf not.
Just to clarify, its not about the money, its about being a good mom and wife. At what point is to much for my family to be working all the time? I feel like I need to be home for them as much as I love what I am doing, im am guilt ridden to the point of making me sick. And dh, he brings home most of the money and goes to school himself (im still out of the house more) and on one hand its hard to blame him for not wanting to help out a nagging, bitch, stressed the hell out wife. I just don't know. My whole world feels like its been flipped just in the last month. Im not "taking it out on people with pa" either, im just saying. And just to clarify, I have been on pa, and in a lot of ways it was easier. That's just my area but...
on Feb. 25, 2012 at 2:23 AM