I thought I was already a member, but here goes... I am 47 have 3 kids with 3 different dads. I am totally in love with my husband, but he can't decide if he loves me or not, or wants to stay with us or not. He comes home for a few days or weeks, then leaves for a few days or weeks. He openly had a girlfriend since this past december, and i'm not sure they don't still see each other behind my back, since they text each other right in front of me. yes I know...I hear it all the time..."get away from him...he is a POS... he is OBVIOUSLY with her...he doesn't really love you...etc." I have heard it all and do realize this, but I love him, and have dealt with this type of s**t from him for the past 13 years, and it would take a book for me to really tell you why we have the relationship we have. I love him. He is my soulmate. No matter what, he knows he can come home to me, at least for now. Perhaps in the next 6 months or so I will become strong enough to really stay away, or make him leave, or whatever. I know there are women out there like me. you know you need to leave, but also know you won't. Feel free to message me if you would like to speak privately. i won't judge you if you don't judge me. I don't need anyone here judging me...I look in the mirror everyday. I judge myself more harshly than you EVER could.