When I don't take them, everyday feels like I'm high- literally like I'm high on drugs. Bad things do happen, but I don't really have the insight to know, or care.
My worries for the most part are secondary, since I'm busy pursuing fun and living in the moment. I used to spend entire days creating, painting, barely eating, sleeping 3 or 4 hrs in the morning.
I keep my bottle of pills beside a framed picture of my son on my nightstand, so I remind myself of why I can't let myself slip into my delusions and crazy.
It's worth it.
But I miss it.