Seriously the man is driving me insane. We are moving and it was a last minute thing so I've had like a week to get everything ready so that it's all ready to load up and go tomorrow. Sunday DH said he would get up every day and help me before work because he works 4pm-2am. I know he's tired but we have a 3 month old so I have himto take care of too while trying to pack our whole apartment and packing. Well today I wanted DH to get up and help me with DS so I could get our laundry all caught up before tomorrow. That was a joke. I'm really sorry he's tired and I know it sucks but there's only so much one person can do and I feel like I'm at my breaking point. This has all been building anyways though. DH hardly ever helps with DS. He has changed 2 poopy diapers adding to his 5 total since DS was born. His mom has changed more. And I have NEVER had a day away from DS. And sometimes I get crabby when DS is fussy and DH gets mad at me. I feel really bad afterwards but it's like I wouldn't get like that if I EVER had a break. And I want to work part time and ga back to school but everytime I've looked for a day job DH says when am I gonna get to sleep if you get a day job? Whenever I give him to DH I come back 5 minutes later and he's in his chair. Like you can't hold him for 5 minutes. I'm a smoker also and DH gets up and has 3 cigarettes over the course of an hour after I've been up for 4 and still haven't had one. And now I've packed our entire apartment by ourself and now am working on laundry while keeping DS entertained. Plus we're moving in with his cousin till DH starts his new job and finds a place. Well his cousin influences him, like to party, and has NO respect for his fiance or women in general it seems like. I've already told him I won't tolerate it if he starts to act like that and forgets he has a family. I'm just getting so fed up and I've told him eventually if he's not gonna help me what's the point? This whole marriage thing is supposed to be a partnership but it sure doesn't feel like it.
*Update: So DH got up about noon and we went to the store together. My MIL came over today and is staying the night to watch DS tomorrow while we load the truck and on our 3 hour drive. Well we got to actually talk. I told him I knoww he's tired and I'm sorry but I'm exhausted too. And I love our DS to death but I need a shower once in awhile and just a breath sometimes. And if I'm going to live like a single mom anyways I can do it without him now. He told me when we move and he starts working days and I start working we're gonna get a new routine with a schedule where I get to be person again. And since I'll be living with my friends again I can have a girls night so I said then he can have a guys night. And since we will be able to afford extra stuff now when I need time I can go get my nails done or something. I told him well he better because I'm not going to live like this forever I'm just not. And this move and changes are either going to make it or break it. I need him to see everything I have to do and appreciate it. He said but I do appreciate you without you we wouldn't even be moving tomorrow. I then told him well then start acting like it and say thank you every once in awhile! This is his chance to do his part and the way he was acting I'm pretty sure he knows it.