When I was young through my years 6 through 10 I used to play doctor with my best friend. she used to want me to sick things in her vagina...and want me to get it done back...we did it so often with a lot of different things. But just to each other. We were both the same age. Was this abuse? I struggle now with crazy thoughts and it never seemed to go away. I really don't know what to do with this.....thoughts?