I'm bipolar and struggling with med compliance.**eta** *update**
Now I'm rebuilding, getting to a healthy place.
My ds and I are happy.
But lately I have this circling thoughts that I should stop taking my meds.
I can't make it go away and I don't have anyone to speak to about it.
I question whether I really need them sometimes, and it scares me.
I wish there was a person I could check in with and just have them tell me "yes its stupid to stop! Take them!"
But its so embarrassing to need that.
On top of that, if I suddenly stop my pills I can have seizures.
Its so stupid and its hardest part of this illness.
Anyhow. That my dumb embarrassing shameful confession.
To clarify: I am not epileptic. Anti-convulsants are used to treat bipolar disorder. Suddenly stopping them can cause seizures.
Thank you so much for all the replies.
I know it's the illness that puts these thoughts in my head, and I will be coming back to this post and reading through all of these replies should the thoughts arise.
I like my meds, I like what they do for me and how they make me feel.