Alcoholic. its not even a question anymore **EDIT**
I drank last night...past out/ went to sleep @ 1230. woke up at 430 & finished the mixed drink I had. Woke up at 6am & took a shot. Just 1...that's what I told myself... 3 shots later its 730 & I hate myself. Im an alcoholic. I need to stop. Im too young to drink this much. I will be sitting DF down tonight (who knows I drink too much but doesn't know really how much).....
Any advice from people who've recovered from this?
I am a great mom, that's not in question.
I just want to thank ALL of you for your support. I know this is just online & I don't know you but your words do mean a lot & help. I called DF and we are sitting down tonight & coming up with a game plan including finding a meeting for me to attend (He may even go with me) I am going to take it one day at a time. Today was the straw that broke the camels back. I've never in my life drank in the morning & especially when I was responcible for my son. I can't believe it I really can't...That it got this far with out me even realizing it. I did the right thing though. I called his father (DF) and i didn't hide anything I told him everything (He knew most) I am embarassed, ashamed, and guilty, but for some reason (maybe this post or just realizing I need to do better) I am Happy. Happy because I CAN FIX this. I know I can & I will. Thank you to all of you who shared your recovery stories, I know that had to be hard. Thank you for those who offered support as friends/family of an alcoholic. I will update later on in case anyone is interested! <3