She has this terrible habbit when she doesn't want to finish her food and chews the food for an hour or until its too dry to swallow so she can spit it out, I usually don't let her spit it and give her water so she can swallow it. This morning I made scrambled eggs, because she asked for them, well she did the chew thing every bite I gave her, it got tiring and I did my best from bite one to tell her be a good girl finish your bite, in the end she just stared at me blankly and held the food in her mouth (this was her 3rd bite btw) I told her if she needed milk and she smiled and spat the food out, this drove me crazy. And for the first time in 3 years I felt like I wanted to physicaly hurt my child, so I picked her up, put her in bed and told her she wasn't having breakfast and to go back to sleep and slammed the door shut. I needed a breather, so I put the baby in her bed and took a step outside, I can hear her crying aand screaming, for the first time I broke down and cried from a 3 year old.
I have no idea why she has been acting out on me, I give her equal if not more attention then the baby, so it can't be jelousy. I disipline her, I tell her I love her, play with her... I don't understand why she is being this way when no one is ignoring her. I feel so bad for letting myself feel so angry at her.
Just needed to write it out and vent.... and no I don't feel better.