It literally makes me sick to my stomach to imagine him with someone else, or having our kids around someone else. Now don't get me wrong I do love my husband we have been together since we were 16 now were going on 24 have been married for 6 years and have two daughters . He has put me threw hell over the years although I don't have evidince of physical cheating I know he has text ex girlfriends being all flirty even asked for pictures a few times, saw that he was talking to sluts on creigslist ...told me that was a joke him and his friends were messing around. We have gone to councling and stuff but its not the same as it used to be . I feel distant from him, I don't trust him, whenever he leaves I'm wondering what he is doing, who he is with if he is lying . He was the first boy I kissed, dated seriously, had sex with. I feel like he is just here. He doesn't try to improve the relationship . It's like living with a roomate you share a bed with and on occasion have sex . Yet I will never leave him because I don't want my kids around another woman that's not a family member , and the thought of him with any one else sickens me . Seriously makes me ill . Im depressed , unhappy a lot of the time. I feel like I'm by myself even when he is here . He plays video games whenever he is home, doesnt help me with our girls he , doesnt help with the house we hardly talk at all. I dunno I just kinda wanted to tell someone that I can't tell anyone in my family. I try talking to him but he doesn't care . I dunno I suppose that's it. Thanks for listening .