I do , been feeling that way a lot lately.
i am fat, no matter what i do i can not lose more than a few pounds, and if i let up at all (and by letting up i mean raising cals to aroudn 1000 a day from 600) i gain it all back.
i am 43 unmarried and not likely to ever be married.
spent 5 years seeing a man that i thought was it, that i would spend the rest of my life with . only to found out every aspect of our relationship was a lie. He even married someone else 2 years into our 3 year relationship.
I just want to throw in the towel. I just dont feel there is and chance of any happily ever after , never did before this man. so i really should have know better.
call this a confession, a vent or call it bullshit, just felt the need to type it out some where , where i wont catch a lot of shit from people i know.
***thanks to all the understanding people******
"oh look they ate a baby, how rude"--- Monroe
Quoting Anonymous:
Can you talk to someone about this? CM won't give you the kind of support you need.
I know it seems hopeless, but remember, NOTHING IS PERMANENT. And your child needs you; you're they're world.
he is the only thing keeping me going.
well for certain issues i could have someone, (issues i did not include) but i am too busy taking care of my boy, r=yeally dont have much time for myself
"oh look they ate a baby, how rude"--- Monroe
Quoting fairyjester:
Quoting Anonymous:
I don't know but I remember seeing you tell a girl with severe social anxiety who needed advice about keeping a job that she needed to grow up, so maybe you need to work on being a nicer person and nice things will actually happen to you
eh i am 90% or more nice.
do have a bit of a low tollerance level for stupidity.
Im sure this may be very rude... But how much Do you weigh?
Quoting fairyjester:
lol yeah right with this body, besides have you watch strippers??? have you seen the heals they wear , i dont have good enought health insurence to even try that.
no i bellydance
Quoting Anonymous:
You're 43 and you're stripper?
Quoting fairyjester:
actually i am stoping the shot as of now as i have no reason to worry about controlling birth. don't know if that will even help after 3 years. put i imagine i will keep plugging along. would like to look better in my dance costume. or atleat be able to move better
Quoting ajohnson08099:
.... no.... it means its worth mentioning. I haven't asked my dr so didn't say it was hopeless... Saying that could be a cause.... It means if you are still taking the shot.... Um the stop.
Quoting fairyjester:
umm errr thanks so its definatley hopless
Quoting ajohnson08099:
Ah yeah. that could do it. I took only one depo shot Sept '10 and I gained about 40 pounds... And i have been unable to lose that weight even though I only had taht one shot.
Quoting fairyjester:
Quoting ajohnson08099:
Um well Idk about the other situation... But you should really see a dr and find out why on a 1k cal diet you are gaining weight. My cousin is anorexic (sp) and she ONLY eats 500-600 cals a day... so... You should really check your health out. On the men. umm idk.. Fix yourself and your health then worry about happily ever after.. because it wont matter if your dead because of your health. gl
yeah talked to my doctor about it last year , when i was doing a strict 1200 cal diet and working out atleast 1 1/2 6 days a week. (insantiy at lunch, gym after work) she did bunch of blood work could not find a reason why. only thing i did not think to bring up (though its in my med record) was that i have been on depo for 3 years. I have never thought it the case because starting before and during the firs 6 months of the depo i lost 80 pounds have not been able to lose anythign since and have slowly gain alot of it back despite constant calorie counting and exercise
Quoting fairyjester:
Quoting Hilary799:
I'm sorry about how you feel. But if you seriously said that to someone....why would you do that? Because you're unhappy. I don't get it.
she was whining about how she couldnt work because being around people upset her.
and when she did get a job she would work it for like a week and just stop going , giving no notice
and i still stand by my answer. sorry i dont buy the i have social issues so i have to sponge off society
Compassion for others always makes me feel better. I always try to give support even if I think someone needs therapy or is wrong. Being mean does not help anyone. I have anxiety in the work place and have several children. Having children is only with one person not a group. I helped my anxiety by becoming a truck driver I only deal with some people instead of many.
thats funny
Quoting lalaboosh:
Having social anxiety doesn't make a person stupid. Maybe your lack of compassion is your problem.
Quoting fairyjester:
Quoting Anonymous:
I don't know but I remember seeing you tell a girl with severe social anxiety who needed advice about keeping a job that she needed to grow up, so maybe you need to work on being a nicer person and nice things will actually happen to you
eh i am 90% or more nice.
do have a bit of a low tollerance level for stupidity.
"oh look they ate a baby, how rude"--- Monroe
around 230
Quoting ajohnson08099:
Im sure this may be very rude... But how much Do you weigh?
Quoting fairyjester:
lol yeah right with this body, besides have you watch strippers??? have you seen the heals they wear , i dont have good enought health insurence to even try that.
no i bellydance
Quoting Anonymous:
You're 43 and you're stripper?
Quoting fairyjester:
actually i am stoping the shot as of now as i have no reason to worry about controlling birth. don't know if that will even help after 3 years. put i imagine i will keep plugging along. would like to look better in my dance costume. or atleat be able to move better
Quoting ajohnson08099:
.... no.... it means its worth mentioning. I haven't asked my dr so didn't say it was hopeless... Saying that could be a cause.... It means if you are still taking the shot.... Um the stop.
Quoting fairyjester:
umm errr thanks so its definatley hopless
Quoting ajohnson08099:
Ah yeah. that could do it. I took only one depo shot Sept '10 and I gained about 40 pounds... And i have been unable to lose that weight even though I only had taht one shot.
Quoting fairyjester:
Quoting ajohnson08099:
Um well Idk about the other situation... But you should really see a dr and find out why on a 1k cal diet you are gaining weight. My cousin is anorexic (sp) and she ONLY eats 500-600 cals a day... so... You should really check your health out. On the men. umm idk.. Fix yourself and your health then worry about happily ever after.. because it wont matter if your dead because of your health. gl
yeah talked to my doctor about it last year , when i was doing a strict 1200 cal diet and working out atleast 1 1/2 6 days a week. (insantiy at lunch, gym after work) she did bunch of blood work could not find a reason why. only thing i did not think to bring up (though its in my med record) was that i have been on depo for 3 years. I have never thought it the case because starting before and during the firs 6 months of the depo i lost 80 pounds have not been able to lose anythign since and have slowly gain alot of it back despite constant calorie counting and exercise
"oh look they ate a baby, how rude"--- Monroe
what to do when the special needs kid is the bully?
Have you ever kept a secret from your spouse?
- fairyjester
on May. 4, 2012 at 7:04 PM