Need help! relationship on the rocks (kinda long though)
My boyfriend and I have been together about 5 years now we have a two year old son and we live with his family. Were both are 23 years old. We been through everything though cheating has never been the issue, he had some serious control issues that we work on even till today.
When I gave birth to my son i completely devoted my life to my boyfriend and my son constantly trying the be the perfect wife and mother in everyone's eyes, that I completely lost track of myself and fell into a deep depression where they were days I couldn't even get up to go to work. My boyfriend use to see how unhappy i was and knew it had to do with pleasing everyone but myself, but never once did he try to push me to do things that made me happy. All he was worried about was me being at home.
So recently I have gotten out my rut and finally started to doing things for myself i have gotten a new job started talking back talking to my friends and family cause at a point i basically cut off everyone off. and him being controlling at the time didn't help that situation.But now that i have a social life, working, Becoming me again were fighting everyday about how I'm not devoting or putting him last in the relationship.
At this point I feel like im truley happy and doing things that I feel make me happy but my relationship is suffering..... I honeslty dont know what I can do. Am I being selfish? Have I honestly pushed him away and not even know it? Please help!
Also he has asked me to marry him many times and I have said yes but always feel that its not the right choice. so i told him we should wait fix our issues, get out ducks in a row and he has made the situation worst.