I was in the Breastfeeding Group and read a reply on someone elses post and just started crying. I'm such a sop. In reality it shouldn't have been something to cry over, but it cut me deep. God I hate DDs old paediatric team, I really do. I damn them all to the non-existant hell.
I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel like a psycho at the moment. DD is asleep and the last couple of nights she has let me cradle her to sleep. She stopped letting me do that ages ago. It made me happy and sad at the same time. Sad,mostly because she is becoming so independant. I miss her newborn stage, the stage I missed out on so much of because of doctors and hospitals and scans and breastfeeding problems and a birth that didn't go the way I wanted it too. It's just stupid little things that are making me upset tonight, and I honestly don't know why. I think I might just add onto this post if something else upsetting reappears.
You ladies want to help me take my mind of all this shit? Ask me some questions or post some pictures (IDGAF if they are offensive) or something, just help me up here. None of that stupid bashing shit, no prejudice, just keep this civil, because in the mood I am now, cutting words will hurt me, and I'm not ashamed to admit it.
Ugh :( It's going to be a long night I think.