I still love you. I have loved you for 8 years even before our romantic relationship began. You really were my best friend for many years... I know its been 3 years since our relationship ended and I know why it did. Its really OK that it did, because I know I wasn't ready and you couldn't handle the emotional craziness I had going on. Heck I was 19 years old and didn't know how to let go. I have regretted what happened since the day we split up.
Now.. I know you haven't changed either or in the ways I would have hoped. You are making the same mistakes with this new... (Haha new, you've been with her longer than our romantic relationship ever was) girl you have. I was hoping you wouldn't. I wish I could have helped her... But I tried to warn her also. Not because I didn't care for you... But because she needed to know what COULD happen. And.. well it did. How could I blame her for not believing me though? She was 17 when you two started dating, she thought she knew everything about love... I guess finally she is figuring out that she doesn't or that you aren't exactly the prince charming she wanted. Which is ok, you are human after all.
I know our relationship went down the toilet in about 2 minutes flat... That you were wanting to be something and someone that I didn't know and I couldn't let go of the past. I couldn't understand at the time that you didn't want to fix us. Now I do and I have for a long time. But I do miss you. For so long now I have missed you.
Now I am married. I DO love my husband... But he has hurt me 10 times more than you ever did. I finally left... or left you alone or whatever when I saw the messages to the other women, even though those were fake in the first place! My husband has cheated on me 5+ times... And yet I am still here. Once again... I can't step away when I should. And I know the whole world thinks I'm an idiot.. But it is what it is.
I know I messaged you the other day and you did answer... But I don't want to push it. I know you said you didn't mind talking to me... But I am not going to say anything else unless you find the want in your heart to answer again. I know I am a stupid woman and I should once and for all be able to let you go... Maybe this is just remourse for us both throwing the better relationship away.. Maybe this is my hearts way of getting revenge over my husband... I don't know.. All I know is I crave for you to come back and I think after all of this time I really need to understand that you are just the one that got away.
The poor girl that still misses you.