but hubby says no. :(
We decided before we even got married that we're going to have 8-10 kids and I was going to stay at home. This was when he was getting into the insurance saling deal where he assured me we could live off his salary if he busted his butt and succeeded very well at it.
Now things changed dramatically: He's given up on the insurance thing "for now" as he puts it, and he's working a call dispatching job that pays him $9 an hour. We have a 1 y/o son (wasn't planned for yet, just happened) and we make it work. We scrape by, but we pay our bills. We agreed that we'd get pregnant as soon as we can after the first one, and then have a 2 year break before we start and have 2 more (if that makes sense). At this rate I won't even be able to get pregnant with the 2nd one by the time our first turns 2 :( . My husband's gotten so comfortable at his job, he said even if he could find a higher paying job, if it's not what he's doing now or in insurance, he won't take it. I'm usually the very passive person in the marriage and since he's older, it seems like he belittles me all the time about decisions. It feels like he thinks he'll just find a million dollars on the sidewalk one day and we can have all our kids and go back to all our plans.
I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense. I just feel heartbroken. I love my little man, but I wanted him to have a little sibling and I don't feel like I can just be a mommy to one :( . Basically my husband told me no more kids until he can make more money for us to support them. At this rate, that won't happen for awhile.