I'm jealous of everyone who grew up with a father. - edit/update/whatever
Edit: This is just ONE memory of my father. One. I have a few. They all get worse then the one posted.
Also for the ladies who are saying seek therapy. I already have. This right here. Confession about my dad and my feelings makes me feel a whole lot better then sitting in a room with someone who is judging me out of a book.
I have only told you a small part of my memory. I have more. I was also physically and sexually abused too.
And to the mom who said she is going through this with her child. Be honest. Do not talk bad about his father. Tell him the truth when asked and if he wants to find him help him look. Out of all my feelings towards my father I hold none towards my mother because she held nothing from me. She let me find my father and see him for what I thought he was. Let him make the call on his father.
My parents divorced when I was 3 years old. My father is a drug abuser and cheater. He has been addicted to every drug under the sun. He will do anything to get his drugs.
I only know my druggy father. I never got to see him before the drugs took him.
I have a few memories of my father. One was him being drunk off his ass and so high that you could smell weed off of his shirts. He showed up at 10pm screaming and yelling. He was going to take me and my little sister skating. He never showed so instead my mom took us out to the movies. We just got back when he showed up. He blamed me. He said screamed at me. That it was all my fault he can't be a father to my sister. He never wanted me and I was a mistake. He told my mother to get an abortion when she was pregnant with me but she didn't want to.
I have suffered daddy issues because of him. I have suffered depression because I thought both of my parents hated me.
I hate my father with a passion. My children will NEVER know him. I haven't even seen him in 2 years. I have nothing to do with his family because they allow him to live in their houses and keep abusing drugs.
I get jealous and upset at everyone who had a father in their life.