The drug i do? Pot. Yea its not addictive physically but emotionally it can be.
No i dont smoke it around my dd. I only smoke it when shes put of the house and gone for the night.
So dds gone, i asked dh to get some. A huge fight blows out and he says im addicted. Im really sorry but i have a lot of shit going on and i would like to smile for once. Im stressed out. I want some weed.
I dont even know any dealers- dh does. Thats why i ask him to get it.. besides when im high we have crazy sex. So its win win for both!
Yea i admit i get cranky without it but i pull through. I dont smoke it everytime shes gone for the night but once in awhile yea i want some. So what?
He said that when shes gone im a druggy and alcoholic. Umm no... i dont drink. Why? Because it costs too much to get me drunk. I need 8 beers just to feel tipsy. Thats stupid. Im up peeing every 15 minutes and drinking something that tastes like crap. Beer doesnt get me happy and sex? Haha yea right. I crash out.
So i smoke weed. I would like to forget some things dear. Some things you dont even know. My past is marked along my arms and i dont feel like staring at them right now.
I have ppd, ptsd and some other personal problems. So lwt me get high and put on a real smile for once!
Atleast im not smoking it everyday- spending all my money on it- smoking it around my dd (shes 2 years old) and caring for her high. No im not a druggy. Im fucking strong to be able to get up everyday or even be standing here. My dd keeps me alive, no one else. But when shes gone- everything flows back up and im sitting here wanting to kill myself. So pass the joint asshole.