i am seriously losing it im shaking im so mad... i haven't had a single break at all since my 2nd was born 4mos ago (my own fault for bfing and having a colicky baby the first 6wks) but the past few days between teething and never sleeping and my older child driving me up the wall with misbehavior and their dad giving me shit and his stress about his new job... i feel like running away and leaving them all behind. obviously i could never really leave my kids but i seriously feel like it. like i really feel like if i dont remove myself from the presence of my family soon for a few hrs at least im just going to snap. but idk how to get a sitter.. my baby is ebf and i only have a shitty hand pump it'd take me a week to collect enough for more than 2-3 hrs and id have to find seperate sitters since nobody will take them together.. and i will have so much anxiety and guilt about leaving my baby... and baby is a VERY difficult baby!! but i am being a terrible mom im screaming at everyone incl. my baby and just feeling HATE for everyone and everything around me! :( :( idk what to do! PLEASE DON'T BASH ME RIGHT NOW!