Maybe was my mother was right about me : / (Update in red)
Couple weeks ago my bf said that he wanted to break up. I was devasted but than a couple days later he said he just needed a break to get a better job and place for himself (he lives with his parents who are sick and struggling with money.) I said that I would give him some space and just be there for him if he needed to talk or just a friend.
Well over these past couple weeks to me it seemed like we were back together. We just went back to how things were before that weekend we broke up.
Well today is his sister's wedding and orginially I had been invited but now all of a sudden he doesn't think it's the best idea since are supposed to be taking a break. WELL I AM SO HURT RIGHT NOW! He didn't think he needed a break when he was saying I love you to me for these past couple weeks that we are supposed to be taking a break. He didn't seem to think that we needed a break when he came over these past couple weekends to have sex and spend the night. And he didn't think we needed a break when he came over on Mother's day to help with my son. But now all of sudden that all his family is here he doesn't think it's a good idea for me to be around.
I told him how I felt and he was like oh well I was going to bring you around after the wedding, which in my head doesn't seem to make a lot of sense. What is the big deal about me not being able to go? I just don't understand it. I know it seems like something stupid to be hurt about but I am.
Maybe my mom was right about me. That I am always going to be some unwanted lil slut who gets used for sex but no one really wants. She always said I didn't deserve to be happy and who would want to be with me let alone have a life with me. Guess she was right ; /
I texted him to leave me alone and have fun at the wedding. He has texted me about 7 times already and I am not going to respond. Going to stop crying, get up and take my lil one shopping. Thanks for listening and the advice!