Was anyone freaked out after their first pregnancy to have another one? (Please no bashing)
I kind of want another baby. Actually I would really like to try for one more, but the thought of being pregnant freaks me out! It's not the thought of another baby at all. It's completely just the pregnancy. It's just not my thing. I am NOT trying to offend people who can't have babies, so please don't bash. You can't expect everyone to love it. It's unrealistic. This may sound vain, but I have BDD (I obsess over body flaws) and my first pregnancy made my self-perception just awful. I felt like it was dehumanizing and almost degrading (Having your skin stretched and ripped, sickness, having a giant baby coming out of me down there, how it left me feeling saggy and empty). I know that is supposed to make you feel like more of a woman if anything, but I felt less of one. I felt ruined after it, having to go through that. It was NOT the baby. I love my child, and would never take it back, but the pregnancy itself was hard on me. Is it just better to not have one at all because of this issue I have? I'm not sure I am mentally prepared for it.