Confession/Venting...Whatever you want to call it..
I posted a little venting note in a nother group but came acrossed this group and thought this was perfect for how i am feeling TODAY! So, hubby and i have been ttc for 19 months. And today since my AF has come, I am really battiling depression. I sit back and look at all these girls/women popping out babies , and i instantly become angered. I often question why i have trouble and why i am told it is my weight when many other women 10 times my size can bare a child in an instant? *sigh* We both have children from previous relationship and marriage. And i became a little sad when he talked to his daughter and child's mother today. Because i envy that just 2 years ago she was able to have his child. But i can't ? :( That part makes me even more emotional today for some reason than it ever has. Maybe it's my hormones or just the fact that i started my af today. She acts like having a child with him was such a mistake, but i would love to have a child with my husband. sometimes when we're at dinner, we just talk about baby names, how we would be as parents if we had a boy or girl....which shifts we would take & how we would prepare for labor. we even watch teen mom, tlc and other birthing shows together...and then we get emotional. :( well, im finished confessing. i just needed to get it off my chest. thanks ladies. xoxo