Let's start with this: I know better. This is just a crazy thought that I get almost every single day lately.
Ok background info. I have been dating this guy since March. He is absolutely perfect. We have fun every time we are together, I don't worry about what he is doing nor does he worry about what I am doing. We see each other 4-5 times a week. The part I struggle with is that he is leaving the country, staying on the continent, possibly at the end of the summer for a job. He just graduated college to be a civil engineer. I am still a college student. I am a single mother of one child. I also hold down a full time job.
My crazy thought: I want to get my IUD removed and get pregnant so that he wont leave the country and he will stay here. I don't care where he works in the country I just don't want him to go to a different one because I know I will only see him on his off weeks when he flys home. Sober me would never ever ever yank the strings but drunk me might.
Pretty much I want to trap him. I wont do it, I am to chicken shit, but wtf? Why do I keep wanting to do this?! I am not a crazy person, I know better. I don't want another child until I am 100% ready for one, in love, married, done with school, and financially stable.
Alright, have at it ladies, eat me alive!