I am sitting here trying to think of reasons not to harm my husband. No this is not a joke and no I am not looking for bashing. I just am really upset and need to vent this out. I can not call anyone to talk about it because he is home and will come to see who I am talking to and about what. He never use to be this bad. Over time he has gotten worse. He tells me how stupid and worthless I am. Tells me I am a horrible mother. Even though I am the only one who takes care of our son becuase "He should have to" I am crying so hard right now I am shaking. For once in my life I actually want to harm him I actually want to fight back. I know you are thinking (Why dont you just leave) he tells me he will take my children. That he is a soldier and no one will believe that he would lie under oath. That if I ever leave him he would make me pay. I would die if I lost my son. Right now I am 20wks pregnant with a high risk pregnancy. I am suppose to be on bed rest. Which he doesnt believe. Tells me my first pregnany wasnt like this. I dont think I can handle much more. He wont go to the store or let me. When I explain that Luke (1yr) and I need to eat he says "So fucking figure it out". I never let my son go with out everything I have ever had I pawn or sell and provide for him. Luckily my father in law has been helping out. He has witnessed a lot of this. But, I dont think he knows what to to either. I know if I hit him he would hit me back he has told me to my face. But all I can think right now is that I am so fucking done.