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feeling guilty about my decision....but i know it is for the best :( **bumping for an update**

Anonymous
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 well school has been in session almost 2 months now. my daughter comes home each weekend and  she looks the best she ever has!!! she is happy, loving life, getting the best grades she has ever gotten and has just grown, blossomed and matured. i think this was the hardest but best decision ever!!! we miss her horribly each night, but in 3 weeks she will be home for turkey day, and then 3 weeks later for xmas for almost a month!!!!!



i have two girls, A is going into 4th grade, B is going into 5th grade. A is extremely bright, athletic, popular, into every activity that she can find, everything comes easily to her, etc. B is sweet, kind and wonderful, she is my little miracle. When B was born the labor was easy, but delivery turned into a nightmare, her umbilical cord ended up being in a knot, then the cord and the cords for the internal monitor became tangled and wrapped around her neck. She was gray when she came out and had no heartbeat, she was quickly revived, but then went on to quit breathing several more times in her first hour. The result was she was born with a brain injury, so for B everything is a struggle, she sweats bullets and blood to get a D, is socially awkward, on the autism spectrum, and just has an all around hard time. Soooo, after a rough school year and much research, I have found a school for her that will be able to accommodate her needs far better than our school district can. The guilt resides partly in the fact that the school is a boarding school 3 states away and that I am kind of glad to see her going. A has suffered a little because of her sister, so with B out of the way, I can focus on A. I can finally go to a dance recital and see her perform, I can finally go to an away game weekend with A and be able to stay with her, instead of her being in the chaperoned room where the one or two other girls whose parents can't go that weekend, sometimes A was the only kid in the room. A can go to school freely without worrying about her sister embarrassing her, A can have friends over without having to worry about if it is going to be a "good or bad" day with her sister and how she might react. Most of all, it will be a wonderful break to have just one child who is motivated, capable, intelligent and not nearly as much constant work!! I really do love B with all of my heart, but she is a full time job, her needs are more than I want to deal with most days. I will miss her to pieces, and visit as often as possible, but I am also glad she is going and counting the days till we move her into her dorm room!!!! Please try not to be too harsh, I needed to get these feelings out, but didn't want to say them to friends or family, much easier to use the anon mom confession forum!!!


**just noticed some comments about their "letters", birth order and favortism. oldest dd's name begins with a B, youngest dd begins with an A** 

Posted by Anonymous on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:20 AM
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Anonymous
by Anonymous 2 on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:22 AM
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I could never send my kid away.
Anonymous
by Anonymous 3 on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:23 AM
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Your sending your child off because she's "hard work!". Gee! You don't deserve her!
Anonymous
by Anonymous 4 on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:23 AM
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I totally get the exhaustion and frustration of having a child with extra needs. I hope your daughter, B, does not "get" how much you will enjoy her not being there. It would likely hurt her deeply.

militarywife09
by on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:23 AM
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My heart breaks for "B"
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little.worthen
by on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:23 AM

thats really sad...

Anonymous
by Anonymous 1 - Original Poster on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:25 AM

i never thought so either, but this school will be the best for her, it was not an easy decision to come to.

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I could never send my kid away.


SommerRayne06
by Silver Member on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:25 AM
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Wow. I don't think I could do what you are doing. Won't "B" feel like she has been abandoned? I have heard horror stories about how they abuse mentally handicapped kids. How will you know she isn't being abused from 3 states away? Just something to think about. Not trying to bash.
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mstkn.identity
by on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:25 AM
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Oh wow. You are...ugh icant even say it. Wow...poor B. She deserves better then you and A.
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EmilysMom2010
by Ruby Member on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:25 AM
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Yeah. It's best you don't speak these things aloud.
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kaffedrikke
by Gold Member on Jun. 13, 2012 at 12:26 AM
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I.dont know what its like for you, but make sure youre doing this for your daughterz best interest not what is merely convenient
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