so tired. I'm tired of hurting myself, I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired
of DH not getting what I'm going through and blaming me, I'm tired of
being told I'm not crazy enough to be inpatient, I'm tired of being
told there are no beds available for inpatient. I was about to fall
asleep when DH moved and woke DD up. It had been hours I'd been
laying there trying to get DD to sleep and then me. I was
frustrated. I needed my partner, but he's done helping me. Now I'm
sitting in front of the computer with even more fresh lumps feeling
alone while they try to sleep. Awesome. And I should keep living BECAUSE?
Yeah, I can't think of a good reason. DH only wants me alive to watch the baby.
Thanks, you guys. I know it seems like your replies aren't helping, but they are. I'm not crying any more. I just wanted to sleep, I was almost asleep. It takes hours for me to fall asleep. :(