I have posted about my depression enough that I don't want to leave anyone paying attention hanging. Here's what's up.
I've been turned away from the hospital like three times, but I have met my counselor at last. Out patient is better than nothing, right? Well I'm still not doing well. I'm having about a breakdown a day and I've beaten myself senseless on the regular for some time now. BHR can't help me get medication, so I have to make an appointment with my Dr and that will take time, so in the meantime I'm taking St John's Wort and trying to drink more water and eat more. I only started the SJW yesterday, so I am giving that time. I also invested a whole $8 in a vial of peppermint oil after discovering how helpful it is for calming down. Seriously, mommas. Get some and just wave it around whenever ANYONE is upset!! LOL! I'm also waiting on an appointment with a spiritual healer, so hopefully that will help. I haven't stopped asking for help, I haven't kept my suicidal thoughts to myself. I'm trying.
I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying. It's SOOOO HARD!!
So yeah, that's what's up. :)