2 years ago I cheated on my husband. It was a one time thing and I was not emotionally attached at all. We were going through a rough patch in our marriage because I had been TTC and it wasn't happening. It was draining us emotionally. It's no excuse for what I did but that's why I did it.
Anyways, I wasn't on BC because I had been TTC and it wasn't happening. I was starting to think I was infertile. So I met this guy while I was on vacation and we had sex. I felt horrible about it and as soon as I got home, I was very dedicated to making my marriage work. I didn't want to be with anyone else but my husband. So we talked a lot and a few days later had sex and started TTC again.
I had my doubts that the baby I was pregnant with was his but tried to not think about it. Fast forward 9 months, I have my son. As the months go on I see that he looks NOTHING like my husband. I have dirty blonde hair and blue eyes. My husband has dark brown hair and eyes. The guy I slept with had platinum blonde hair and blue eyes and DS looks just like him. I am sure that DS is not my husband's. But I didn't want to break up my family so I never said anything about it. My husband never questioned it and has been a great dad to DS.
But now DS is 2.5 and I just had a daughter. She is definitely my husband's. I have not cheated on him since that incident. Well our daughter looks just like us. She looks a little bit like me and a lot like hubby. Brown hair and I think her eyes will turn brown later on. She and my DS look nothing alike. DS is all his dad.
I am scared that he will start to question why our DS looks so different from everyone. If he finds out, I'm sure he will leave me and it will tear our family apart :(
What do I do?