Growing up my mom had a boyfriend that pretty much raised me from the time I was 2 up until I was 15. There were moments growing up that I was uncomfortable around him. He always would ask me to cuddle with him and his hand was always between my breasts. When I would get sick he seemed to enjoy rubbing vicks on my chest and body. He did grab my breasts while we played around claiming it was an "accident." I remember a very graphic memory from my childhood where I was having my footie pajamas being ripped off of me and touched while having a hand shoved into me. But this image and memory I have pushed out of mind and refuse to face. I never really told anyone about it. Just about a year and half ago we ran into him and again I got a weird uncomfortable feeling around him but I refused to relive the pain and memories I grew up with. Since than I have cut off contact with him while my sister craves his attention. Finally I talked her out of it while not revealing what happened to me while growing up. Last night I woke up in a cold sweat, breathing out of control, and wanting to cry. The dream was about him pulling my shirt and clothes off while I am trying to run away from him and I keep telling him no. He keeps saying no one will know please just let me. I just don't know how I can over come this. I really thought I was over it.
Any advice or suggestions would help.