Semi-long but I am done with this - I am overburdened to the point of suicide
We have a war waging with bed bugs. Me and my child have been the only ones in the house pretty much bitten alive. My entire body is covered. I am embarassed, grossed out, sad, depressed. What makes it worse is no one here will listen to me. No one seems to think it's as huge a problem as I have read or seen it be. Our landlord brought us and our apartment neighbors over some bed bug foggers earlier. I have read everywhere that these things don't work and just make the problem worse. No one will listen to me. I don't want to live with this infestation anymore. I can't.
I am ready to honest to God kill myself over this. I would rather be dead than living in this kind of home and no there is no way I can move or anything.
They couldn't even deal with a simple lice problem. We had lice on and off (mostly on) for over 2 years. I did everything I could within my power to help get rid of it but nothing ever worked because it went back and forth through our families forever. I am sure some of us still have the problem.... two years.... two years.... how can I believe that a problem as big and worse as this will EVER get settled or fixed? I can't. It's not possible, especially when no one is listening to me.
I am just going to be done with this life. It couldn't be more heart wrenching and disturbing if it tried. I am NOT a gross person. NO NO NO. I am GOOD person with good hygeine and good morals and good whatever. I don't deserve this pain and embarassement. I don't deserve to lay in my bed in fear every single night because I know these huge freaking bugs are crawling all over me and my toddler. Why is it fair? Why does it have to be us??
I know the landlords gave our neighbor that bomber too and chances are she WILL use it since I am positive this is how we got them. So what, she will use them and it will send them ALL over towards us, so our problem will just be multiplyed. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't think. I can't live.