The last two nights I have had multiple dreams that my husband has been wanting to cheat or currently cheating. He has cheated before a few times and I sometimes feel I was rushed to get over it. I held onto it for a little while but our one year anniversary is friday and all this happened less than 4 months ago. Usually, when I have these dreams something is happening or is about to happen. I don't know what it is, the wounds are still very fresh to me. I know he is trying to change and I want to believe the best in him. I'm just so frustrated. The dreams are so detailed to how and when he is going to do it so I'm dreading the day we go out for our dinner, although I know it may not happen like that.
For those of you who are going to try to bash me please don't because I honestly don't care that you think I should have just left my husband when he cheated the first time. I chose to stay with him because I refused to let some tramp take away everything he and I have built.
I'm just asking for advice on how to let it go or how to handle it.