No matter what I just cannot fit in at church. I cannot seem to find anything I really enjoy. I cannot sing, play music or teach. I am just not good at those things. I am somewhat younger than most of the other moms and older than the teens. College and career is out because I do not do either. I am usually stuck in the nursery with babies because nobody else will do it.
I have tried. I joined softball along with DH (he also plays drums for the worship band and does choir sometimes, he does Sunday School too) Yeah, that lasted about 3 practices. They did not even give me a chance to play or do anything. It was not worth getting a sitter to go in sit on a bench. I never even practiced.
So, tonight we had a church picnic. They were all playing volleyball. I was thinking it looked like fun, so I joined. Every Time the ball came near me, I was pushed out of the way.I was even elbowed a few times. I basically stood there. I am not that good, I admit that, but 4th graders were also playing. The Adults had no trouble letting them play. Then they kept changing the way the rotation was going and I went to the wrong spot and the one guy says, rudely and loudly "ARE YOU GOING TO MOVE?" So I went and sat down with my only mama friend.
So I told DH, he needed to move the car. Fireworks were about to start and all. He was like I am playing Volleyball.
So I had to pack up everything and put it in the van myself and chase down all our kids. My friend tells him I am pissed and he comes to find me. I told him what the guy said and how I could not believe that girl was wearing that. He goes and tells the guy to apologize. This is what he said "I don't think I did anything wrong, but sorry" Jackass. He elbowed me in the face going after a ball that I had clearly called.
I am really reconsidering my choice of Church. I hate that place more and more.I have tried to be helpful and pleasent, but I feel there is no place for me.