I have 3 kids and I'm a SAHM. My DS4 has autism and he's nonverbal. He's an extremely difficult child, cries/screams a lot- never any tears- a lot like a temper tantrum. I really don't know why, neither does his teachers (he's in a 1:1 program for autistic children) or the doctors, it's perhaps a phase, according to them. He loves food, I mean loves it, so I usually feed him a snack or a small meal to calm him down, which works for the moment. Also, means most days he has 4 meals/7 snacks and I feel 7 snacks is far too many. He doesn't like to play, won't touch his toys, at school one of his programs is simply playing, and he won't. He won't play games with his sisters and I such as duck duck goose, musical chairs, tag, ring around the rosey, etc.
Anyway, he went back to school today for his 5 week summer program, and I am relieved. Not that I don't love him but it's a 6 hour break each day from his crying/screaming and I can actually get my errands done with my DD's and take them to the park/zoo/beach without him there throwing a fit. It's embarrassing in public, he looks normal, and at 4 he's too old for a temper tantrum. And people look at me like why can't I control my child? I hate telling people he's autistic, I'm not looking for sympathy or hearing I don't know how you do it etc. But if someone actually asks him why are you crying? I answer he's autistic and they ask him again why are you crying?!?! I then say he's nonverbal and they usually walk away or ask a million questions and give their opinion on how I should handle it- which to me is like someone without kids giving parenting advice.
Anyway, am I horrible for feeling this way?