I didn't expect it to be easy but I did expect to enjoy it overall. I don't. I have a difficult child and I am the first to admit that I am not a great parent. I do my best and I love my son no doubt but patience, consistency, sternness...all things needed to be a good disciplinary I lack.
I was not blessed with an "easy" child. My son is very difficult. He has had speech problems and now we are seeing his doctor about his behavior problems and his wetting the bed at night problems. Everyone who has babysat him has backed out because of his behavior. A sunday school teacher, my grandmother, and my mother inlaw. They all watched him during the week but couldn't do it because he's so mean, unruly and destructive.
I have no idea why he is like this. We aren't mean spirited in my house at all. We are very gentle and sweet to him. We discipline when he is bad but it seems like nothing works so that's why we are going to the doctor.
But anyways back to my original post. I love my son, i really do but I didn't think being a mom would be so hard. I sometimes wish I could have been one of those "lucky" moms who have sweet kids at least some of the time. I get maybe an hour total per day(if that) of my son being nice and following the rules.
I know I will get bashed but I needed to vent. I just wish life as a mom was rewarding as I thought it would be.
*my son is 4 btw, if anyone asks*