Lately my mom has been going through a tough time. She's thinking about her life and choices. She texted me and said "I know I wasn't the best mom, but I did the best I could for you and your brother. You know that right?"
What do I say to that? She watched us get abused, was abused herself by my stepdad. She saw my bloody face when he pushed his hand over my mouth so hard my teeth cut into my lips. She saw the clumps of my hair on the ground and cleaned them up after he picked me up from the ground by my hair. She cleaned the cut I got on my head when he threw a fucking rock at me and split my scalp open. She saw the bruises on my brother's back.
It took me going to school and seeing a bad grade and crying for the teacher to see. I was crying because I knew if I brought home a "D" on a paper, I'd be beaten again. My ankle was already sprained from him throwing me down the stairs the day before. My teacher asked what was wrong and I told her everything. My mother was forced to leave or lose us.
And the she found a man that was verbally abusive. Calling my dyslexic brother a retard, pushing my brother against the wall when he was angry, calling me an idiot and a butch, calling my mom a cunt...
How do I respond to my mom that I know she did her best? How do I not tell her she's wrong? Or would pointing out her mistakes now even make a difference? Idk maybe I'll just ignore it. I just felt so angry when she sent me that message. How could she not even say she's sorry?