It's been several days, a week maybe, since and I'm left here, stuck in limbo. He is a homebody; never goes out. Well he has gone out almost every single night since until 3, 4am. I'm left with the kids all day and all night.
We had sex last night, ugh. What the fuck is wrong with me? I thought maybe that would help.. Where is he now? Out with a coworker from work. I don't even know this kid, have no clue where he lives, don't even know if he's really there. Dh is in his mid 30's and this kid is like 21. Fucking weird.
When he texted me tonight saying he was going to this kids house after work, i broke down. My heart is aching and if it weren't for my kids, I'd off myself.
Why should I even still want him? I want him to leave me alone but in the same damn breath, I want his attention and for everything to be ok.
What the hell is wrong with me? My heart is breaking...