I absolutely hate this :( but I AM thankful (sorry, needed to vent)
I hate that DH lost his job. I hate that he had the responsibility of being the breadwinner and that my pay check can't and won't cover all of our bills. I hate that we are going to have to move out of our house. I hate that I have been crying off and on all day even though I have been trying my best to keep it together, I especially hate that I have cried in front of DH who really doesn't need to feel guilty because of my stupid tears. I thankful for them but I hate that we are going to have to live with my parents again. I hate that this is the week my car decided to break down. I hate that I have to work tomorrow (but thankful) when I need to be packing up my house. I hate that I have to take down all the stuff we're put together for the nursery before we even bring baby home.
I hate that feeling like an independent grown-up is gone for now and that I'm going to be a child in my parents house again :(( And I hate that if feel like all the hard work and sacrifices we have made to be together in our own home feel like they're just flying out the window....
I'm thankful I still have a job. I thankful that I know that DH will find another job. I thankful we have a healthy baby. I'm thankful we do have a safe (and free) place to go. I'm thankful I have a can. I'm thankful my dad is remodeling the house a bit so that that it will seem like we have our own little apartment (He's putting up a wall and door on one side of the house so that two bedrooms, a long and wide hall way and full bathroom for just DH, DS and I.). I'm thankful that this could just be a chance in disguise for us to save up money for baby and that we may be able to put a down payment on our own home instead of renting again. And I'm thankful for my faith that this is a blessing in disguise and may be just what we need because, honestly, neither of us know what we're doing or how to be parents and now I have my mom's guidance through all of this. I'm thankful that going to my parents means we get to keep our dog.
Now which list is bigger?