I'm such a b****. Why am I doing this?!

[Anonymous]

I'm supposed to be getting married soon, I love my fiancé, he's my everything, we have a son together. We also have a lot of problems.
Let me back up:
I've always had a lot of online friends, it's how I met my first husband. When I was talking to him, I was also talking to a guy, we'll call him Adam. I was 15 when I started talking to him, I lied to him about my age for a while because I really liked him. He had a 4 year old son.
Well, I was also talking to "Jim". When I was 17 1/2 Adam asked me to go stay a couple weeks with him, I was so excited! He knew how old I really was and he liked me. <3
At the same time, Jim asked me to go live with him! I said yes to him and moved across the country. I still kept in touch with Adam tho.
A couple months later, Jim and I move back to my parents house, get engaged and get married, Adam and I talked here and there but I knew he was hurt.
2 years pass and I get a divorce, it just didn't work out. Not even a week later, I meet a guy.
Pause: I had full intentions of going to see Adam when my husband left.
Ok so I meet a guy, Paul, and we move really fast. We have a son and here we are...
So last night, I message Adam. Just to say hi, it had been a couple years and I was wondering how he and his son have been. He says he thinks he remembers me and asks my name. I tell him and he says "oh yea, you were supposed to come stay with me but you got engaged"...
I tell him yea and now I'm divorced. I don't mention my fiancé, I just leave it at that.
The worst part? If I could, I'd be with him...

[hatinnd]

 Is this the same traveling hooker troll from the other post??   lol

[Anonymous]

I hear ya.

[Anonymous]

Getting married "soon" would be a mistake.  It's clear that you're no where near ready for a commitment like marriage. 

[rockinmomto2]

...so why not go be with him? You're not married. If he'll make you happy, life is too short to miss the opportunity.

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

What? I'm not a hooker at all. This is all true.

Quoting hatinnd:

 Is this the same traveling hooker troll from the other post??   lol

[Sunshine257]

Are you one of those people that fall in love with the idea of love? Not an insult just curious. You sound like maybe you need to evaluate what you have and take the love goggles off.

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

I don't know. I mean I love my fiancé. We have a son together. I just don't know.

Quoting rockinmomto2:

...so why not go be with him? You're not married. If he'll make you happy, life is too short to miss the opportunity.

[Livinwith3boys]

so you'd rather be with a pedofile than the man you are with now?? Heres an idea...GET OFF THE INTERNET!! You don't even know who these men are!?!!?? You need some help sweetie...How old are you?

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

Maybe? I dont know, I do love my fiancé, he provides for me and our son, he's my everything.

Quoting Sunshine257:

Are you one of those people that fall in love with the idea of love? Not an insult just curious. You sound like maybe you need to evaluate what you have and take the love goggles off.

[Anonymous]

THIS

Quoting Anonymous:

Getting married "soon" would be a mistake.  It's clear that you're no where near ready for a commitment like marriage.