This is not a troll post. I posted about this before with a fake profile until I learned about this group so now I'm just going anon. I don't know what to do. He has been taking Adderall for almost a year now, and he isn't the same. He has accused me of having hidden cameras, lasers and has said he thinks I have apps and stuff to trick him. He says he sees hidden people inside of pictures and shows. He HAS abused his Adderall before. I keep trying to tell him it's from the Adderall and he says "No, cuz I stopped taking it for awhile and was still seeing stuff so I know it isn't in my head!" He got a 90 count bottle of Adderall a week ago and they're GONE. He took the last 4 today. Granted, they are IR and not the XR kind, but still. Be says he takes more than he's supposed to because the IR wears off too fast and doesn't work well. I've tried everything. I tried flushing the pills once, I've tried hiding his bottle and only giving him a certain amount a day, and finally I told him no more Adderall or I'm done, but he got a bottle of it again anyway last week and didn't tell me he had it, but confessed when I asked him because I could tell he was on it. He never used to be like this. He has bad ADHD and says he needs a reward system for his brain because he's so depressed and frustrated without feeling a kick from it. I feel like I've lost him. He's not the same. I'm lost and don't know what to do.
I wanted to add that other than this stuff, we have a good marriage. Not perfect of course, but we truly love each other. We usually are happy and get along, have a great sex life, he's very sweet and affectionate with me. It's just when this stuff starts up, he isn't himself.