Df and I are at eachother's throats. We constantly fight. He told me that other day that at this point he knows both of us are just in this for our boys. And I have to agree. We never kiss. Only peck. Haven't had sex since Easter. Never spend time together. It just sucks. I feel miserable in my life right now with him. Financially it wouldn't be smart to leave him bc I would hate to mess him up money wise. Also it would make things a little tight for me as well. When we do spend time together it's like we are just friends watching a movie. Anyways me ex called me recently. This is THE ex. You know the 1st love, 1st kiss, took my virginity. Just 1st everything. He wants to meet for lunch to catch up and I know I could take it farther if I wanted to but I feel guilty thinking about it. I just needed to get that out. I'm sure I will get bashed and that's fine. And also I have NEVER cheated on anyone before.
EDIT: Everyone keeps telling me to get a divorce. I can't do that bc I am not married.