I hate feeling like this. My daughter hates me, wants Nana, Papa... hell if she had the choice I think she'd want a stranger before me. (now that is an dramatization because she clings to me around strangers, she is shy) If someone else is to be had then she wants Papa or Nana. Anyone but me. I hate the way that feels. I am jealous and hurt. As dumb as it is I even feel angry.
Being a Mom is such a thankless job sometimes. I didn't become a Mother for praise so please don't start that tangent. It would be nice if I didn't feel like my daughter despises me.
Maybe I should go and request anti-depressants, it will numb this pain of rejection I feel. I feel so STUPID, CHILDISH! Ugh!
*Don't misunderstand me, I do get kisses at bed time and hugs and occasionally she will explicitly ask for me. In general however she just prefers non-me and it hurts.*
PLEASE NO BASHING --