People will think I am crazy, but I am really disappointed that my midwife
wants me to get a level 2 ultrasound and see a perinatologist.
Yes, I know I have had children with birth defects. We have seen geneticists and spoken to several specialists. They all agree that what happened to my kids was just random and could happen to anyone. There is no genetic component. I am no more likely to have these things strike again than anyone else in the population.
When my 3rd son was born with multiple birth defects, I had no idea before birth that he had them. We had several level 2 ultrasounds. The thing is, not one of the defects my kids have had are likely to even be detected even if they are specifically looking for them. They are not apparent until the organs are having to fully function on their own. When my son was born, I was so thankful that I had not discovered it before birth. I would have been so stressed out during my pregnancy and worried to death. In the end, it would not have changed one thing.
It may seem crazy, but I just want to have a happy, stress-free pregnancy and not have to worry. I don't want the test. I don't want to know. I want to face the obstacles as they come. I just want to let things be how they are meant to be.
I am going to tell her at my next appointment and see what she says. I am worried that she will say she does not feel comfortable delivering for me if I don't. :( I am not at risk more than anyone else. This is so not fair. (Yes, I know life isn't fair. It just sucks.)