I hate visiting with my DH side of the family. We been here since early June and in the process of moving to the south. Neither of us have jobs until we get to our new home so for the time being were staying in the NE part of the country depending on inlaws... At first it was ok, food was abundant and everyone had plenty. Then inlaw had her mother & sister come from her home country. No big deal right? Wrong. That's when I was constantly scrutinized for my parenting and "how much food I'm taking. " I felt as if I had to cut down on eating so my son could eat. ((mind you, I'm American and they are Caribbean, different tastes)) when they cook it's like I have to cut my portion of food down to 1/4 while they could have double helpings. ((I'm not saying I'm ungreatful, I LOVE they way the food tastes and such)) and if I'm wanting another plate I'm looked down upon as if I'm stealing their entire kitchen. ////////////// I HATE NOT HAVING MONEY OR A JOB. It's so frustrating to have to depend on people ALL the time! I want to be able to buy myself new things like a pair of shoes and clothes that don't have holes in themand CLEAN underwear!! AND I want to be able to look nice for my husband so he has something to look forward to each day. I want to be able to take my son places and buy him things he needs and do all the RIGHT things a mother should do. //////////////// I hate being inside alllllllllllll day everyday with nowhere to go! Idk where anything is at. And it's not like anyone here will be all like "hey, come hang with us"
(((To be continued...)))
(((((anyone else feel this way??)))))
on Aug. 18, 2012 at 11:41 AM