So, when I was a child, about 2 or 3, I was raped by my father. No, he never went to prison for it, I never really told anyone until the last couple of years. I was also molested by my grandfather on my fathers side, also did not go to prison. I was molested by a cousin who was several years older then me, also did not go to prison. Lastly, my fathers best friend attempted too, but all he got was a handful of boob on a couple of occasions. Anyway, I was left with a rather distorted view of what sex was and who you did it with. I have a brother who is 5 years younger then me, and I used to do sexual things with him. I feel terrible about it happening, it hasn't happened in 16 years, but still. I don't know if I should tell someone or if I should just keep it to myself? I'm afraid that if I say anything, people will hate me and not want to be around me. My biggest fear is actually losing my boyfriend, who I love so much and is my "one."