Have you ever thought about suicide?
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But I have to stay here to protect my kids from this monster.
But it's getting harder and harder to deal. Idk how much longer I can hang on.
Before I became a mom, yeah... I was almost successful once. I took a bottle of Imipram and ended up in a coma. In the last decade, I've only gotten that sad again once. And I didn't think about suicide, I just became completely unfunctional-- I'd start to cry when my feet hit the carpet after I got out of bed because the feeling of carpet on my feet hurt somehow. And I just wanted to stay in bed.
Before it got that bad, I tried to go to a psychiatrist and explained to him that I hadn't had a bad episode in years, but I was starting to feel down in that old, familiar way. He didn't think I needed medicine. That's how I ended up getting so bad. Then a friend helped me. He took me to a walk in clinic, where we explained the problem. I got a 30 day prescription for antidepressants and made an appointment with another psychiatrist to get a second opinion, where we worked on my drug cocktail over the next few months until we got it just right.
Never. I have been through some really terrible times, but I have always valued my life more than anything. (((hugs)))
when I was a teenager, yes. I was in such a dark place then, I don't even like to think about it. I used to cut myself, and fatasize about killing myself. I don't know how I got through it (I had a pretty tough childhood)... but I did. I still have bouts of depression from time to time, but nowhere like I was.
Get some help. Living through that has taught me that no matter how hopeless you feel, life does get better!!! I am so glad I never did that. I would have missed out on a lot of happiness. It may not seem like it now, but your life will get better!
Yes. In high school I even bought some sleeping pills... that was when it hit me, I had something really wrong and I finally talked to my mom and she got me to a doctor. I was on Zoloft for a while and then in college I was put on Lamictal instead. I'm not on any medication right now, and things are a little rocky but they haven't gotten quite as bad as they used to be. DD keeps me strong.
Being a SAHM for the past 5 yrs has made me