He asked me how long it would take to get there again. I was confused about what weight he meant, my slimmer days or when I ballooned up on the depo shot. He wants me to gain 10 or 20 lbs because he loves the way I look now and would like me to fill out a bit more.
I'm hating this body that I'm trapped in. I'm trying desperately to adjust my daily schedule to fit in a workout routine. The more weight I gain, the more depressed I get.
Part of me wonders if I should just accept the fact that I'm bigger and just go shopping. They make really cute clothes in the plus size section. Should I just learn to live with it and make myself happy that way???