My husband and I have been married for 5 years. We have 2 kids (3.5 and 1.5) with our 3rd due very soon! He is a wonderful father, provider, and husband. I know without a doubt that he loves me. I know without a doubt he isn't cheating on me. We just don't have sex.. He shows NO interest in having sex with me. This started RIGHT after we got married in 2007. Let me give a little back ground on DH
We were originally supposed to get married in June of 2007 and one day I came home early from work to find PORN rented on our tv. He admitted then that he had struggled with it since he was a teen. Porn is off limits at all cost to me. I don't agree with it. You should be having sex with your wife not yourself fantasizing about other women. So I had him get help he spoke with our pre-marriage counselor (it was a requirement before getting married at our church) . Well he tells me he hasn't masturbated in years.. I don't know how long.. I don't know how true. I try very hard to believe him and trust him with this. I know he doesn't want to lose his family and yes, I would make him leave if I found out he was doing it again.. Not because he was doing it but because he didn't come to me with his problem as agreed.
Now. We may have sex.... once a month.. at best. I have a high sex drive. I like sex a lot. I can be butt naked in front of him and he doesn't even get erect. Given I am a little bit bigger than I was when we first got together and had sex 6 times a day BUT I am pregnant and I have had 2 of his kids. It kills me I feel like I am not enough like if I was skinnier.. or prettier... or something. Maybe just maybe he would desire me.
I am not one to keep my mouth shut about how I feel. I am honest with him and he knows I want more, He has this excuse on how he thinks that he tried so hard to get away from his addiction to porn that it has effected him with me... :( I honestly don't know what to do. I am over feeling this way. I am to the point of telling him he needs to go to the Dr. and figure out if it is chemical or something else is going... And my worse fear... is he gay? I mean... how many men have a willing horny wife and just don't care?