Before he was diagnosed with cancer, he cheated on me WHILE I WAS PREGNANT WITH OUR TWINS, was gone for the first three months of the twins life because he couldn't take the "pressure" and he was so verbally abusive that I became anorexic to lose weight. I had to go to counseling so I wouldn't die from malnutrition. After all of the horrible things he had put me throuh, I took him back EVERY TIME! I never once told him he couldn't come back home, I never once told him he couldn't see the boys! NEVER!!! I was ALWAYS open and there for him. He was gone this year for six months because he felt like "less of a man" because I make more money than him. So all of the sudden, he came back to my house two days ago crying. This time, I was so fed up with his bull shit and so fed up with him coming in and out of my childrens lives that I told him to get his ass and his garbage out of MY fucking house! I even throw the divorce papers in his face. He starts crying and saying how much he loves me and wants to be with me but I don't want to hear it. Then he hands me some papers that says he has lung cancer and I feel like such a crazy, disgusting bitch.
When he left, he always left with a different girl and that always took a chunk out of my heart. Now I don't know what the hell to do.