I hate that my SO has been married before. I never have and I feel like his moments with me won't be as cherished because I'm his second. I also hate that his mother sends his ex-wife presents for Christmas. She also sent the ex-wife emails while we were there visiting from several states away. Can't she just enjoy her time with us?
I've thought about leaving him several times because of these situations. I love him, but it hurts so much and I don't know what to do. I never envisioned my life this way.
EDIT: Everyone is assuming I'm married to my SO. I am his fiance, not his wife. I'm trying to decide what I should do about the way I feel before I ever get married.